Oh. My. God.

Is that my name up on that list? Does someone know that I exist? Is this a mistake? Am I even awake? Pinch me now to make sure…

I honestly can’t tell you who screamed louder; Elle Woods finding out she made the internship in Legally Blonde, or me finding out I have a place on a Film and Television Production course. And the CV I sent in wasn’t even scented!

I did feel that my blog posts were becoming a bit depressing in nature, so hopefully you won’t confuse my excitement for arrogance and will enjoy the more upbeat tone of today. When I started this blog I wanted a way to transition from an Economics degree to a career in TV production, but was struggling to find a way to make that happen. I considered making a full-scale zero-budget production. I applied to more related and unrelated jobs than I can remember. Honestly, I was beginning to wonder what my next move was…

Yes! That is my name in black and white! Maybe I’m doing something right. Wow, I feel so much better than before…

In a way this is the start of the life I wanted two and a half years ago, although back then the idea of a Masters didn’t seem like the best option. What I didn’t understand was the opportunity it would provide, and I don’t just mean something to put on my CV. I literally have no practical experience in film or television production, and I need it. I didn’t enjoy learning about Economics, but I want to learn about something I’m passionate about. I don’t want to go into a production job without any serious knowledge of the industry. I want to be good at what I do. No, I aim to be exceptional at what I do. Why would you aim any lower?

I know some people don’t understand my choice to study, and there’s a huge variety of different ways to break into the TV & Film industry, but you have to do what you believe is in your best interest. There is no right or wrong way to do things because there is no set guidelines that you can follow to guarantee you the job you want. All you can do is increase the probabilities as much as possible and never stop chasing your dream. I’m very lucky to have got onto the course I most wanted, but don’t forget that the only reason I’m in this position is because so many other people said no.

Maybe a reason why all the doors are closed – so you could open one that leads you to the perfect road

I feel I should give some advice in case anyone reading this is also having trouble getting to where they want to be. It comes down to perseverance and belief. You have to believe in yourself that you can get to where you want to be no matter what life throws at you. You may believe in fate in which case there probably is a reason why the doors you’re trying to open won’t budge. You may just believe that life can be shit. Don’t give up. Never give up. You will get what you want if you try hard enough, you just might not find it where you thought it would be.

I’ll be there on Monday 9 o’clock, then we will see who walks the walk. Oh, no, I can’t wait! I will be there at eight when they unlock the door!

And, back to me. I’m nervous about the course. What if it’s not what I expected? What if I’m no good at it? I’ve placed such a high expectation on the course and myself that there is a very real chance that either could disappoint. You know what, though? It feels so good to care this much about something again. I’ve wanted to apply myself to something I love for so long and I now have that opportunity, whether I succeed or fail. There are only so many points in your life that you know are big enough to change the path you’re on, and I know this is one of them. Now I’ve just gotta find a job to pay for the course!

I am so much better than before!